Changed

From the outskirts of the town // Where of old the mile-stone stood,

Now a stranger, looking down // I behold the shadowy crown // Of the dark and haunted wood.

Is it changed, or am I changed? // Ah! the oaks are fresh and green,

But the friends with whom I ranged // Through their thickets are estranged // By the years that intervene.

Bright as ever flows the sea, // Bright as ever shines the sun,

But alas! they seem to me // Not the sun that used to be, // Not the tides that used to run.

facets

My many reactions to changes...

You could never fool me. You have changed and you know it. Or not, I don't care. It wasn't instant. It was gradual, really. And I was there, observing you, from a distance. I can't say I'm glad that you've changed. I'm indifferent to it, you see. Change as much as you want, for all I care. You live your life, I'll live mine.


Please let go of the memories. I have. Now, it's your turn. Let's change together.


I wish for things to remain the same but it's impossible. I'm not being dramatic. I'm just stating the truth as I see it. Yes, our circumstances have changed but I'm still hoping that our friendship wouldn't. I am fearful of what might happen being left behind a number of times and you know it. I just wish you'd consider it. Or maybe it's good that you're inconsiderate because it teaches me to let go because if there's something hard for me to do, it is to let go.


I wish you didn't say it. I wish you kept these things to yourself. I am not a fan of change and I could sense it coming. I am trying my best to not be naive and wish that I live in a perfect world where we are all innocent. But we're not. It's a cruel reality where people are cruel... where I am cruel. I don't want to be, but if the circumstances demand it, I will be. So please forgive me, in advance.


I know you don't like change, I'm with you on this one. But if you keep on living in the past, it wouldn't help you and do you any good. Come on. Stand up, look ahead and wipe those tears away. Let's all embrace change and look at the brighter side of life.


I am grateful for this change. It was gradual, yet the results it gave left a massive impact in both of our lives. I never saw you fully... until now and I regret not ever paying close attention before. But for me to dwell in my past mistakes will only result to regrets and I wish to make up for all those lost time. I'm glad we have put everything behind us. Cheers to this wonderful change!

Hellhole

the truth that hurts

You were really doing fine before this summer, you know. You were independent and finally able to move on. Then all of a sudden you got sucked right back in that hellhole you have tried so hard to get out of. Life is full of choices dear one. You cannot say that you simply have no choice but to stay where you are and sulk because you are compelled to. You can get out of that shithole. You can.

Look around you. Your life does not revolve around one person, one goal, one thing. If you're not the number one priority, if your love is not reciprocated, then look elsewhere.

You deserve so much more. So much more.

You keep on focusing on that person making you miss out on all the other choices life has to offer. You are neglecting the people who do care about you genuinely.

You are only making that person be more conceited than how that person is currently is at the moment and I cannot stand it. Stop feeding the ego because it's making me nauseous just thinking about it.

That person will taste that person's own medicine in the long run and you'll be in the sidelines with a blank expression in your face because you just don't give a rat's ass anymore.

I wish that day would come sooner. I wish to see you truly happy.

But as long as your happiness is tied to that person, I doubt that day would ever come.

Life and it's niceties.

Pathetic, right?

reflections

to a few friends, companions and peers.

I really do not see what you see in him. I really don't. All that he has done against you completely negates whatever little 'niceties' you claimed he has shown you. Can't you see that it's pointless to wait for him when it is so blatantly clear that he has moved on and is never going to look back at the "has beens"? Can't you do the same? You.are.punishing.yourself. Please take care of yourself a bit more. He doesn't deserve you.


What's wrong? You seem a bit aloof lately... Is it because I haven't been too careful with my actions? Have I blatantly disregarded what has happened in the past months when all this fiasco suddenly slapped us in our faces?


You don't know what you're getting yourself into. You have no idea. So BACK OFF.


It doesn't hurt to say those things you know. It truly doesn't. What makes you so damn scared to say them?


I want you to miss me.


Should I be jealous?


I love hanging out with you. Please. Just please don't ever do anything drastic... I like the way things are.


STOP STARING. IT IRKS ME. PLEASE.